Finally, a Ho Ho Ho!!!!

And let this be my final ho ho ho of the year, but the ho ho ho pics are finnnnnally up! To the not-so-gentle man who wants me to be flogged for taking so long to post them... HMPH! And, I'll see what I can do ;) The gallery software I used made the galleries all out of order though... so I might go back and edit this gallery as this is really under my skin. Cocksucking all out of place and everything! Software issues, I tell you, the things a slut has to do to expose herself to the world these days... :)

Enjoy... and a FEW previews. There are 46 pics in this series in the members section!

Look what I found...

Surfing around on Jane's Guide, I found first her review of my site... (Which is growing daily and will soon, I hope, have that nifty little Quality link on it!) And then I found a link to Susie Bright's blog... gosh, who knew? Now Susie Bright, in case you don't know, is one of the pioneers of the sex positive movement. She is a sex writer, teacher, performer, and feminist. She is amazing and her blog is a lot of fun, so check it out! :)

I wish I'd lived in the 60's... can you imagine a life without HIV? Just for a day, to be able to run around a place like San Francisco on the pill with no worries about dying from sex... My gosh, I'd have had so much fun! :)

Vulnerability...

One of the things that I love and hate all at once about doing what I do and being who I am, is that it all makes me so vulnerable. Each new thing opens me up to the universe in a new way and I feel a little bit scared and a little bit nervous about going there; which is when I know I really need to!

Opening up a porn website after years of doing only hardcore BSDM has made me vulnerable for sure. My voice was so unique in the BDSM world, and I wondered if it would be as strong, as unique, in the universe of plump amateur porn. (So far so good, I hope!)

Then putting up that first video... my gosh, who knew such a thing could make me feel so raw and exposed! Photos are a different thing entirely, and so much easier to control every aspect of. I do not photoshop myself in any major ways; I clean up red eye, or glare, or if I have a big pimple!!! LOL! :) But if you've ever met me, you know I look exactly like my pictures. Still, I am able to look at each image on its own right and determine if it is flattering or not, if I want to use it or not. This site has encouraged me to include more photos that I might not normally consider "flattering" of myself, and that is one step. But video... video is a whole 'nother thing.

There I am, moving. Talking. Making sounds. I am not enough of a movie editor to be able to pull a scene from a video even if I wanted to... so you see me gag on C's cock, hard, and hear me giggle afterwards, as if you were standing here watching us in our living room. Each frame presents me slightly differently in what may or may not be an unflattering light. (I have to say this particular video is, I think, overall very flattering. But then, I'm on my knees, looking up, sucking cock... this is a very good look for me! A big beautiful cock is definitely my best accessory!)

In doing what I do and being out there as a whore, a sex worker, an adult model, I am not able to close myself off to those in the universe who are unkind or mean-spirited. If I could, I'd also be closing myself to all the amazing hot wonderful GOOD out there as well. So I'm open, and sometimes I get hurt, and it is hard to deal with... but most of the time I'm rewarded with sooooooooooooo many wonderful emails and feedback and it is all a part of my sexual evolution which is ever-changing.

Sometimes I get emails asking me if C knows. If he knows what, I wonder? If he knows that I'm a dirty slut whore who is needy and greedy for tons of sex and new experiences? If he knows that his cock is featured on my website? LOL Of course he knows. I guess some people are capable of lying to someone they love and hiding 80% of their personality away... I am not. I'm also not a very good liar, darnit... I'd be a terrible poker player.

But as for poke-HER... now *that*, I am good at :)

Happy Ho Ho Holidays!!!!

So did everyone have fun? I did, although the time went by so fast... I swear this year went by in the blink of an eye. C and I have been having a great time but so busy that I'm still in the middle of working on the silly ho ho ho pics! Which I SWEAR will be up in a few days. I swear! It takes forever to edit every picture for lighting, red eye, etc.

I met a guy last week who said he never pays for porn, and was searching on kazaa to see if he could get my pics and porn for free. This hurt me in such an awful, personal way. I don't imagine that someone like that understands the hours and hours and hours I put into this site. I mean ten dollars to access thousands of hours of sex fun is absolutely nothing and barely even covers hosting this silly site.

I know that my image is out there in the universe now and I cannot withdraw it or take it back; the universe kinda owns it in some ways now. But on MY terms, dammit. The idea that someone would steal that from me is such a violation.

DON'T do that, if you are thinking about it. Seriously. It is wrong in so many, many ways... and it is such a personal violation!

This particular guy is not a bad person or anything like that; he just doesn't see why stealing porn is wrong. Well, after spending 4 hours sitting and painstakingly editing every single photo of me before it is posted online, I can count at least 360 minutes worth of ways! He did seem to finally see the error of his ways and at least told me that if he sees me on some P2P filesharing site, he'd let me know.... so thank you honey!

So anyways, I haven't been able to post in a few days... just so busy busy. But glad to be back and gearing up for what I hope is a massively crazy New Years Eve. So what did you get for xxxmas, and what are you doing for New Years Eve???? :)

Holiday rush....

I wonder if you guys are sad or glad that I simply have no time to babble right now... hmmmm!

Here's another pic from my ho ho ho set for you... I'm editing them right now and hopefully will have them up by xxxmas! :) And tonight I think maybe C and I will do that "spread with buttplug" request I got... pics, pics, and more pics! I am having a blast with my kewl new camera! Nifty new feature I noticed yesterday: when looking at pics in the HUUUUUUUUUUGE display screen, the pic will stay right side up no matter which way you turn the camera. That is really nifty!!!! :)

If you haven't joined my site yet, wouldn't it make the perfect xxxmas gift to yourself? And all for the oh-so-ridiculously-reasonable price of TEN measly bucks!

Darnit, I forgot what else I was gonna babble about...

Ho ho hooooooooooliday spirit....

I hope you like 'em.... :)

The First Video....

So, I'm waiting for the silly thing to upload right now, which of course is taking forever because it is a big file! :) Actually I have two versions of the video; one is 640x480 which means a large viewable image size and a big file size (8MB). The other is much smaller, 240x360 I think. Anyone know why iMovie only outputs video in that size? Kind of annoying! But this technology is new to me so you guys are going to have to bear with me a little bit while I figure it out. The video IS uploaded to the members section now though so go check it out!!!!

So I had a good time this weekend... I got to play with a beautiful, juicy, plump, fluffy girl whom I've been lusting over for months and months. *sigh* Yum! Plus C has been horny like crazy and molesting me all the time which I love! Last night he was fucking me, then made me cum with the hitachi, then fucked me more, then hitachi'd me more, then fucked me more... holy crap dude! Turned me into a shrieking bundle of wet whimpers! Yummmmmmmmmm!!!!!

So the latest is that Bush admitted that he has been breaking the law and will continue to do so no matter what America thinks. I think these people should be ashamed of themselves. They are trying to turn America into a KGB-Russia-Like society where everything is secret, the government works under cover of darkness, and we should just "trust" them to protect us. That is not what America is about; our Constitution exists to protect us from nutjobs like this one assuring us of what HE has decided is "best" for us. All hail King George, right? WTF is it going to take to impeach this whackjob? Not only did he flat out lie us into war, he's been breaking the law and violating the privacy of Americans for the past four years... brazenly! ARGH! All it took for Clinton was one lousy blowjob!!!! Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh! Ok, ok, end rant...*grumblemumble!*

Why is it that the only thing I seem to be able to engender discussion about is politics? Don't you guys feel strongly about SEX???? LOL!!!!

Yum, candy cane cock!

I hafta be superquick 'cuz I'm on my way to be Santa's helper-slut at a party, but here are a few of the pics we took today with the new camera... ho ho HOLE. We also took a very dirty video... YUM! Now I just hafta work on figuring out how to get the video online for you guys!!!! *smooooooch* hope you enjoy your happy, horny little ho ho hole!

Assorted sluttish babbles...

Well now, I really was in a rush yesterday... I had lotsa fun in spite of all the awful rain/ice/slushy nastiness plaguing us here in the DC area. Yum, yum, yum! You know who you are!

I am trying to shop for the holidays for some little ones in my life. You know that Toys R' Us Big Book they send out is the most useless piece of dead tree on the planet. Everything in it is sold out by the time you go to buy it. How annoying!!!! Plus I am throwing another swing party tomorrow night with my friend Kitty and her Master, and I have utterly forgotten to buy a naughty toy for the naughty toy exchange! ARGH!!!!!! That means I am going to have to make a sex toy store run later today. *sigh* It is going to be a crazy day!

Plus the sun is shining and beautiful and my puppy is looking at me with big puppydog eyes like, "Please Mom please can we go out and trudge through the sludge and slush and mud, it'll be so fun fun fun!" LOL! Meanwhile, I think the mice are probably going to just evict me, my dog, and my fiance, and take the house over completely. (I've ordered some nifty humane traps. But don't tell me to kill the stupid things, I don't wanna! I just want 'em outta my house. Dagnabit living in the country in an old house!)

I have a nice me vs. Bushie debate going on in the comments section of the "slut whore bible thumper," post... LOL... I really did not make this site to comment on the war. And I *am* going to post a permanent article about *why* I feel the way I do. But I haven't had time yet!

C is coming home tonight, he has been out of town, so we'll be able to *finally* take our ho ho ho pics! YAY! Our new camera is STILL not here though!

I wish I were rich and could afford to get "make your own dildos" for everyone... what fun! LOL! :)

A few pics to brighten your day... :)

I'm in a rush....

But I just wanna say really quickly, if you're out there reading and want to comment. Puh-lease don't hold yourself back. Go ahead! Bring it on! That is what the comment link is for. Why do Bushies have to be so dramatic? "I couldn't hold my tongue any longer." DON'T!!!! ;) More later... :) I gotta go have crazy sex now!

Tamara: slut, whore, bible thumper?

So apparently my tirade on my swing website has gotten people thinking that I am a bible thumper. Now this is pretty hilarious all things considered, as I am not sure it's possible to find someone who is as opposed to organized religion as I am. Frankly I think the bible was written by a bunch of sexually-repressed mysoginists, but what do I know? (You, however, are entitled to believe whatever you choose to believe.) Anyways I basically told this right-winger who wishes all peace activists would be airdropped to Iraq to be taken hostage and killed by insurgents that he was not behaving as a christian.

Apparently, irony escapes these people. The whole point being that the right-wing is ramming christianity down everyone *elses* throats, not that I wish to. I do believe in being kind to your fellow human, however, even those fellow humans who are complete and total idiots and full of hatred for everyone around them. Or at the very least, I don't wish them dead and tortured.

"Do no harm," is quite enough religion for me. (And no, I am not Wiccan either, although I think it's pretty neat. I just like that. Do no harm.)

The only way I'm going to thump a bible is if I happen to bump into one in the midst of an orgy.

So there, now I'm a blaspehemer AND a bible thumper, all in one horny slut-a-riffic package! What more could you ask for?

For anyone who wants to know "Well, now, how is the right-wing ramming Christianity down anyones throats?!" I would say... a) you are not paying attention. b) two words: Plan B. c) Stay tuned, I'm going to write something about this to have on my website permanently, about how the right-wing ideology damages the sex-positive community.

I'm putting a completely unrelated, but fun pic below just to make me smile when I check my blog later... *sigh*

The world....

Is pissing me off today... and it's only 10am!!!

First of all, they excecuted Tookie last night. Now I do not claim to know the right or wrong of this... sometimes I hear about some particularly brutal thing someone did and think the death penalty is right, sometimes I think it is wrong. If you've ever seen that movie with Kevin Spacey about the death penalty, I think you can at least admit that there is almost always a possibility of being wrong... and death is so damned permanent. No taking it back. And why hold someone in jail for 25 years and THEN kill them?!?!? That just seems so bizarre to me. Either do it or don't, but stop screwing around about it.

Anyways here I am surfing my swing website and reading the little blogs people post there and I read one which says "Kudos to Arnold for killing Tookie," and another which goes on about the four peace activisits being held hostage in Iraq, laughing and saying how ironic it is and maybe we should send more peace hippies over there for them. ARGH! Here I am hoping for responses to my post about "make your own dildo," (Thanks Waterclone I love it!) and instead I'm getting people telling me that they hope people like ME get held hostage and murdered in Iraq for disagreeing with the war.

Meanwhile I get an email from a guy who says he used to be an admirer, but after joining xxxtamara.com (this here site itself) he cannot stand me anymore. I'm too slutty. He was expecting the Virgin Mary? Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze!

Boy I'm glad it's the holiday season... I'd hate to see people like this the rest of the year.

Thanks for letting me rant! I will be more cheerful later, whether those idiots like it or not, I swear it!

Sexy Gifts.....

If you could request any sexy gift from your favorite Santa-slut, what would it be? What is the bestest sexy gift you ever received? It could be something someone did (ie: an action, like licking you head to toe for hours on end), or it could be an object. Here are some things I've noticed around the 'net lately that I think would make fabulous and sexy gifts to keep you warm through all those cold winter nights!

I was surfing sex toy stores online for my sex toy store reviews and I found all this neat stuff. Like this soy based massage candle. What is a soy massage candle??? It is so kewl! It is a candle which burns at a lower temperature to be safe for your skin. Burn the candle for twenty minutes or so, blow it out, and then drizzle the warm wax on your partners skin... where it becomes massage lotion. How nifty is that?!?!

Interested in anal sex? Then you should definitely check out the Ultimate Guide to Anal Sex by Tristan Taormino. I will always bring her up at the first mention of anal sex by anyone, as she truly is goddess of all things ass-related. Plus, she is incredibly hot. I have not seen the movie yet, but I've read her book. Also, don't miss her website! What a fun movie to watch while curled up before the fireplace playing with your soy massage candle! :)

Now I just wish I got paid if you guys actually go buy this stuff, but I don't. I really do want to hear *your* ideas too!!!! So, click that little tiny link under the post which says "click here to talk to me!" :)

Ho, ho, ho! Yes!

Attention slut...

So yesterday I was standing around whimpering... it was early, I'm cranky (PMSing and keep your "poor babies" to yourself, dagnabit!), C was busy and I wanted ATTENTION! I think I was actually trying to tell him something, but he walked into the room, said "So you want attention huh?" And proceeded to bend me over the couch. He spanked my ass a few times, then pulled my jeans down and alternated spanking me with grinding his fingers on my clit. Finally he pulled his cock out and shoved it in my mouth... then he dragged me into the bedroom and proceeded to fuck the shit out of me and cum all over me. YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM. Yes, yes, yes I need attention ALL THE FRICKIN' TIME!!!!

Yum, I love being an attention slut!

I have a few new things up on the site... I've added a section to review sex toys (though right now it's mostly sex toy STORES!). Also added a new advice column about threesome sex. Enjoy! :)

Links and things...

So I have just found some nifty new links I wanted to post for you. First, check out this site... think I should try to be a Plush Cat Calendar Girl? Would you guys buy the darned calendar? LOL! It could be fun!

Next are a bunch of link sites I'm featured on. Some of these are toplists which mean that you can vote for me by going and checking them out; but if you do, please really check the site out and only click the link *ONCE!* Or I'll get a spanking, I will! First we have Big Butt Nicole's Toplist... Then there is ChubbyLinks, a ginormous links site created by Greenguy. (I bet some of you know who Greenguy is!) I met him in Vegas once! ::waves to Greenguy!:: His site features handpicked BBW, plumper, and chubby girl links. Then there is Plus-Size Diva, which is the links site which lead me to a new lingerie site which looks faaaaaaaaaaaabulous and which I am already lusting after fifteen different things on.

Happy slutty surfing! :)

Dripping wet, steaming hot...

Well, a girl's gotta stay warm somehow... it is *cold* out there, and snowing here in MD!!! :) (I love the snow... and I will choose snow any day of the week over freezing rain, sleet, and ice!) Well, anyways... I was taking a tropical bath last night and C decided to take some pics of me. I've just posted all 45 of them to the members section, but here is a little preview... hope you enjoy!

Naughty In Nature...

Yeps, I said *in* nature... although I'm naughty by nature as well. :) Here are a few cute pics we took about a week and a half ago. They make me laugh because we're out in the middle of the woods and I'm flashing my booty every which way! (I also flashed my tits, but those pics didn't come out.) Of course it is COOOOOOOLD out so flashing was not easy... I'm wearing sweats and a fleece and layers and stuff. I did my best though and hope you enjoy. These are clickable, so if you want to see them bigger... click 'em! :)









Also, I've added a link to a new blog called the BBW Press, written by a kewl webmaster friend of mine. If you like plump, plush, soft, curvalicious cuties, definitely check it out!

Solid gold...

There are luxury objects and then there are luxury objects. I tend to be a little bit of a pennypincher myself... for example, silicone dildos which are the very best quality you can buy, tend to be very expensive. I have to really talk myself into spending $90 on a toy for my pussy. (Of course I do have the Sybian, but darnit, my fiance got me that. And I looooooooooooove it!)

But this... this is seriously mind-blowing. A little tiny vibrator that runs you $1400 because it is 18 karat gold. You have got to check this thing out!!!! So, who's going to get it for me? ;) (I am kidding!)

I am full of XXXmas lust for so many things on Blowfish right now!!!! I have also had a wonderful few days... I met an absolute sweetie pie of a guy from TX, was used and abused by a hot dominant who never even allowed me to see him or hug him or anything, then got to play with a very kewl couple and introduce a beautiful woman to the Hitachi... YUM! What is not to love about that?!?! :)