My Pet Goat, Part Two...

I've been trying to keep politics *mostly* out of this blog...this blog is for things that are more fun. But today, my heart is breaking for these poor people made homeless by Katrina... my heart is SICK, positively sick, upon watching Bush sit and twiddle his thumbs. He spent yesterday at a fun golf resort in Arizona, relaxing, squeezing out a bit more vacation time. Of course, there was nothing much to do... considering that he'd cut the disaster relief funding for New Orleans drastically to help pay for his tax cuts and dirty war in Iraq. Meanwhile, he is trying desperately to convince everyone that the dirty, dirty war in Iraq is as noble a cause as World War II. Never mind that women will be under the thumb of Islam (so will Christians in Iraq, for that matter... ah, the irony!), never mind that the definition of "victory" in Iraq changes on a daily basis much like our reasons for going there have changed daily.

This man is corrupt. He is evil. He is rotten to his core, and he completely and utterly disgusts me. I simply do not understand how any sane person can not see this for themselves.
If you can help, the Humane Society of the US is down on the Gulf Coast trying to rescue stranded, abandoned, and injured animals. Most people donate to the Red Cross, so they can really use every bit of help they can get.

I'm sorry for being such a downer today guys... please, please send your very best thoughts and wishes to everyone on the Gulf Coast. I just wish there was more I could do.

Bellybutton full of cum....

Does anyone know the best way to get a gallon or two of cum out of your belly button? *blink!*

Well, the day before yesterday... I was being a brat all day and upset and cranky about various things with C. Eventually we kind of made up, but I was still feeling.. just as bratty and cranky as I had been before. Finally my babydoll handled that in the best way possible...

I'm trying to remember how it started. Sex does this to me, puts my brain in a fog, a wonderful wonderful fog where things blur together. We were lying in bed together talking things over, and the next thing I knew he was sitting on my chest, one hand tightly on my throat, slapping my face with his cock and saying "Who loves you?" over and over and making me answer him correctly. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMG... my pussy is tingling just thinking about it. We went on like this for a while, my pussy throbbing as he slapped my face with his hard cock, occassionally shoving it in my mouth, occassionally increasing the pressure on my throat, making me gasp for air and whisper his name over and over. Finally he rammed his cock in my cunt, fucking me hard, hand never moving from my throat and still asking me... "Who loves you?" while he fucked me so hard it hurt. I was gasping and saying his name over and over, crying, I needed this so much! My pussy was hurting, and so happy!!!! Finally he pulled out and shot a ton of cum all over my tits and stomach while I wiggled with happiness. He let me lick the last few drops of cum from the head of his cock, and then I laid there happily rubbing cum into my tits and belly.

YUM!

And then today, he threw me on the bed and started fucking me and came on me... FOUR TIMES IN A ROW. WTF... my honey musta been backed up! :) Anyways I'll be scrubbing the cum out of my bellybutton for the next week or two... when he's cumming all over me my belly button forms a tiny little bowl, then overflows, cum spilling everywhere.

Yum, what an image! :)

I want these!!!!

Check these out guys... aren't they adorable??? Diva Dots!!!! Cute little pasties in all different patterns. Yum! :)

Something more fun...

Well, it doesn't get a whole lot more fun than Don't Spit, Swallow! LOL! :) A website which says "We are cock suckers united to help you swallow." This site is a free one with lots of helpful tips and info.

Spitting vs. swallowing is such a hot hot topic these days. Personally I love to swallow, sometimes, on my own terms, when I choose to, and when the moment feels right. What makes it feel right? Usually it's being with a man whom I trust, enjoy, and whom I sincerely LIKE and want to please. Nothing is more of a turn off for me in this, than a man who EXPECTS me to swallow. I suppose in my fantasy world the idea that every man on the planet should feel entitled to use me as a cum whore is kind of hot, but in reality it usually just irritates me. Hmmm, I'll definitely have to explore that more.

I have had so many great, cum drenched moments, I'm not even sure where to begin talking about them... and my brain is feeling a bit scattered and unfocused today for some reason... but I will tell you that quite recently C and I broke in our pool (I bought a 3ft by 12 ft inflateable pool), and discovered it's the perfect size for fucking like bunnies, without being so deep that you worry about drowning. He came in my hair to keep the pool nice and clean, LOL, so there I was, drenched wet, naked, soaked, lubed up pussy, and cum covering my head, smiling and happy.

Hmmm. I think I'll see if C wants to go jump in the pool right now... maybe this time we can get some photos ;)

Irony...

OK I cannot help myself... isn't it more than a little ironic that a sex positive website which includes the word rape anywhere on it isn't acceptable to a billing company, but a site about crack whores, which takes advantage of the misfortunes of others, is? What do you think? These people actually go out and interview crack whores for this website... that can't be legal, can it??? I don't make any money from you signing up there... but hopefully you won't want to anyways! I'm cranky because I just woke up, I'll post something more fun later. ;)

Beautiful reality...

I am so dismayed!

When I first found out about blogging, I was like... "Huh? I've been doing that forever!" Except I called it a diary, not a blog (which stands for WebLog, for those of you who didn't know!), and it chronicalled my crazy intense BDSM relationship, plus whatever happened to be going on in my life during that relationship. The one thing it ALWAYS was, was real.

Well, I should've known. But I'm naive, perpetually, and somehow I assumed blogs would be a rare place of honesty on the 'net. And, sometimes, they are. But I've been out surfing, looking for places to list my very own dirty blog, and I've found soooooooooooo many fakers. People pretending to be who they are not all for the purpose of placing advertising for sex sites in their blogs.

Shucks, I'm a mercenary slut, and I have nothing against it. I just hate not knowing what's real and what's not. When I'm reading Janie's Sexy Blog, I wanna hear about JANIE. Not some webmaster pretending to be Janie.

Well, at least *here* I can promise you reality. You may not like it. You may even hate it. I may not be your type. But I am real. My life is amazing (to me, at least) because I am combining my fantasy with my reality... my sexuality with the everyday... in a way you rarely see. And for whatever odd reason I get off on sharing that with other people. Even anonymous people who browse my blogs all the darned time without ever posting a comment. (You know who you are!)

Well... I guess I'll continue to look for myself for titillation and continue to search for sexy reality out there on the 'net. I'll let you know when I find some!

Should I include an obligatory dirty pic linked to a pay website? Oh, ok. But the kewl thing about this family of sites is the tons, and tons, of free sample photos! :)

About amslaves...

Well, since I added a link on amateurslaves.com today to this site, I figured it might be time for me to mention it here... reciprocity and all that. :) Well, the truth is that amateurslaves is where it all began for me. Not that exact URL... but I've been running amslaves in one form or another since about 1997. Gosh it seems like forever!!!!

I started it while I was in a very, very intense BDSM relationship... heavy duty stuff. I don't do as much heavy play anymore... C and I don't get to do that that much anymore, though when we do he can be very, very, wonderfully mean to me! *sigh* I am indeed naturally submissive and gravitate towards that in most sexual encounters. C loves the fact that I'm open to him whenever, wherever, and he knows I'd do anything in this universe for him... loving him with a love that encompasses every single molecule of my being... I am a lucky, lucky little slut!

I do miss it and hope that we'll be able to find some time to venture back there again. But, in the meanwhile... well, amateurslaves was really oriented towards a BDSM relationship which created a level of intensity that was... well...kinda crazy, but oh so fun... so after each visit with my then-Master, I'd write a long diary, have a ton of pics... the relationship created the content, so to speak. Now, when I do BDSM, it isn't in a week-long chunk... it's for a few hours. Just not as conducive to those long long diaries. (Tho still conducive to lots and lots of photos!)

Well, about a year and a half ago the billing company that I used went under... and since then I haven't been able to find a billing company that I like. One used a "bot" to troll the site and came back and told me they couldn't accept amateurslaves because it has the word "rape" in it. They were referring to a gallery of photos I titled "Gang Rape Central," because they are taken in a scary looking dirt cellar... of course I'm *alone* in the photos, but that doesn't matter to them. So basically you can have tons of photos of rape or anything illegal you like... just name the galleries, "sexy bees and flowers," and you'll be fine.

Yeah I could edit it... but the truth is that I don't want to. And I don't want to have to censor myself all the time, when I myself am the subject, am quite capable of fully informed consent, and know wtf I am doing for gosh sakes!

So, I'm still looking... but my plan is to open amateurslaves as a kind of archive, and put the newer photos (more sex oriented) here. Gosh, a horny slut can never have too many porn sites, can she??? :)

Speaking of sex and submission, here's a photo from that new site... Sex and Submission. They do very nice work over there!

Tidbits of a photoshoot...

Here are a few sample photos to indicate some of what you'll find (eventually) in my future members section.... me getting fucked by a beautiful cock and filled up with cum and covered in clothespins all the while. YUM. I especially love the photos of me with cum dripping out of my very full pussy! (For the record, anytime you see photos fluidly bonding me to someone that way, it's my future husband. Everyone else plays with condoms! The vast majority of photos, however, are of his cock. His very yummy, prolifically cum-producing, cock!)

More tails from the Red Rooster...

Another story from the Red Rooster in Las Vegas....

So, me and my one girlfriend were hanging in the hot tub, chilling, while another of our friends was turning herself into the club whore. It takes us a little bit longer to get started. At least, me! At least, sometimes! Anyways, we're surrounded by nekkid people which is always fun, and such a variety. The Red Rooster is amazing if for nothing else, the enormous variety of people. I noticed these two guys sitting off by themselves in a corner looking... well, not out of place, because of this huge variety, but kinda bored and lonely.

One of them was very, very slender, and so young. (Cradle robber!) Shaggy brown hair in his eyes, glasses, very geeky in that adorable way I love. (He reminded me so much of my fiance'!) The guy with him was older, more scruffy in some indefineable way, and for some reason totally reminded me of a hard rock group roadie. LOL! He had long hair, salt and pepper, in a ponytail. I can't remember if I put clothes on before I went over to them or not... *hmmm!* Well by default I tend to be naked, so let's assume not. I walked over and asked if they wanted to play?

So... the older guy followed me over to the glory hole. This was an area set up in the hot tub room, sort of an arrangement with curtains and the obvious holes. People had been going in there all night and fucking inside, so of course I had to also... plus, it was so convenient! We went in and I started going down on him. He started getting a lil' too enthusiastic with that so I pulled back, and said "No WAY dude... I'm here to get fucked! Let's GO!" I slipped a condom on, and we proceeded to go! It was fun, a little uncomfy because of a very hard floor, but ok.

So we finish up and I go to grab the other guy, bring him in. He's so young, so fresh, so tantalizingly yummy! I am not usually attracted to men who are younger than me, so this was very very odd... and I was definitely going to go with it. He had this vulnerability about him that was so appealing to me... which I'm sure he would be horrified to hear! This was not an obvious thing... just a vibe I got. YUM! I started to suck, and his cock was so, SO hard I thought it might just explode, so I quickly put the condom on, laid down, and...

"HEY! You can't do that in there!"

WTF???? One of the... I dunno, bouncers? Guys who work at the Red Rooster stuck his head into our cozy little glory hole room and ordered us out. NOW. Now I cannot imagine that this is really conducive to a hot sexy time for most of the denizens who attend the Red Rooster, for me it really pissed me off and damn near spoiled the mood. But I was determined, so I tried to brush it off... where had I not really had my hands full, I probably would've gotten myself in quite a tizzy!

Instead, I pulled my guy to another room... demanded loudly of the bouncers, "So, in this swing club, are we allowed to fuck in HERE???" They nodded a bit gingerly, not sure how crazy I was willing to get. I wasn't, not at that moment, and my guy and I went inside.

This actually wound up being better. A comfy bed, I could pull his clothes off and lick his flat tummy... embroiled in this bizarre fantasy where this guy was a high school kid AND my fiance' all in one lean sexy package. *sigh!* He wasn't the world's best fuck... he's too young, just needs practice ;) But it was so fun, anyways. The whole thing was so fun. His hair falling into his eyes, the glasses, and btw I was right about the other guy... turns out the two of them were sound engineers or something. I knew there was a musical influence there! It was over pretty quickly... by that point the poor guy had been waiting a while!

The only bad thing about this was that later, I wanted to play with him again... and he was *gone!* I guess that's just how it is fucking strangers though....

Speaking of strangers fucking, here are a few... ;)

Hurry up already!

So I am sure some of you are wondering... screw all this blogging noise, where the heck are all the dirty pics you say you have Tamara?!?!?

Well, the answer is... I am getting there darn it! :)

I have not started a membership site in a long, long time... and the last one I did kind of evolved from a free site, so it was more gradual. Now that I'm sitting down and trying to get all the pics together I realize that I have more than I even dreamed. A good photoshoot for me always ends up with some very naughty pics, though I usually only post the not so naughty ones, for various assorted reasons. (You know you are looking pretty hot when your photographers cock gets gradually harder and harder throughout... YUM!)

In a members site though, I'm going to post ALL of them. Then of course many many of them are completely unedited, so I need to go through and fix the photos. I don't do the airbrushing thing (I'm a real person and I'm NOT perfect), but I do fix red eye and sometimes if there's a really wierd something that needs to be blurred out... ie: I'm photographed on a white wall and the edge of a broom protrudes into the photo. I'll airbrush out the broom, I will! (Depends on the scenario. Sometimes that looks kewl!)

Thus far I have over 300 photos ready to go. I think once I get to 500 I might just go ahead and open the site up, and then keep updating as fast as I can... because there really are *so* many, even without my doing anything new! (Which, of course, I will... how could I help myself???)

BTW, it is my BIRTHDAY, and I'll post a photo if I want to. :)

It's my birthday, it's my birthday, it's my BIRTHDAY! I am 31 and proud of every moment... because every single iota of me that I have, I have earned! *shakin' my birthday havin' booty!*

Have a wonderful day folks :)

One more slutty photo....

This one is me and my puppy, both our booties hanging out of the moonbounce my fiance rented me for my birthday three years ago. *sigh* Now we have a crazy bouncy fun party every year for my birthday! Who knows what fun awaits this year... ? :)

Vague, blurry, memories of last year... sweaty, hot, bouncing up and down in the moonbounce... me and several other naked chicks pressing our tits and pussies into the moonbounce netting while people outside watched... getting fucked hard inside it, outside it, around it, LOL! The guy picking up the moonbounce later going "oh gross, is that a condom?!" Making up a silly story about a gag gift... :)

Happy slutty birthday to me!!!! :) LOL!!!

A fun free photo....

I hope you guys enjoy this hot, hot, photo... this is from Real Fucking Couples, one of the websites I've been telling you about. I love stuff like this, which is real people, really fucking!!! My fiance' is totally turned on by chicks with glasses, does anyone know where I can find some cute glasses with NO correction to the lens? Just glass? I am dead serious on this! If I get some I promise to take puh-lenty of pics :) (Tho my digital camera is broken... I'm currently seeking a replacement!)

Dove's curvy chicks.....

OK, so surely you have noticed Dove's new ad campaign featuring real women. Well there are some really interesting reactions to this nationwide. Slate has an interesting article about it, though I don't agree with some things they say, of course!

You know this whole thing is interesting to me, because for me, men have been looking at my very above average curves with lust for the duration of my LIFE... this is NOT something new to me. Slate says "These Dove ads say it's cool to be round and hefty... so long as your skin is taut and firm and perfect." Slate... BS!!! First of all, a size 12 is hardly HEFTY... get OVER your vision of a size 2 being normal! Secondly, they have a great point in their ads... it's no big thing for a "firming cream" to "firm" someone who weighs 90 lbs. Thirdly, what... bigger girls aren't allowed to improve themselves or do whatever makes them feel good?!?!? I am ALL about supporting people's goals for self improvement, as long as it comes with a hefty dose of self love. Loving yourself does not equate believing in your own inherent PERFECTION! Life is a journey!

Check out this week's People magazine (with Jennifer Aniston on the cover) and read a few fascinating quotes... one reader says that if he wanted to see AVERAGE, he'd go to a bar. Yeah hon, and if I wanted to see skinny supermodels, I would head to a bathroom in Malibu to watch them hurling their low fat lunches.

(There are lotsa women who are naturally thin. They are lovely too, and NOT whom I am referring to, and you KNOW it! So don't go there!)

I also noticed something about bigger girls recently and it kinda... I dunno, threw me for a loop, because it's so obvious and something I should've noticed before. Now this is MY opinion. But I guess I was in a mall or something and I saw a bigger girl... such curves... so pretty... just standing there and she just radiated this incredible sexuality. GOSH sooooo yummy, it made my pussy throb just looking at her. And I realized something, looking at her. Bigger girls are automatically more sexual. Their asses stick out, their tits stick out, their waist is emphasized by those bodacious curves, and you are constantly confronted with their sexuality whether you like it or not. With a very very thin woman, she doesn't look sexual until she TRIES. She puts on a slutty outfit, or bends over and sticks her ass out and then suddenly you are confronted with her as a sexual being. At least, most of the time, in my eyes. What do you think? I invite discussion, but not meanness, about this. :)

All this said I have spent many happy moments in strip clubs with a tiny little hottie shaking her ass right in front of my face about an inch from my tongue. However that goes right back to what I just said, right??? That they are, in that moment, making a pretty major effort to be sexual. What do you think??? I'm off to go caress my skin with some dove body wash... ;)

Almost my birthday....

I can't believe it, but I'm going to be 31 years old in a few days! The time just starts flying faster and faster as you get older, doesn't it??? Not just from being busy but somehow from a different perception of time. Do you remember being 10 years old and the last day of school, it seemed like summer stretched before you for an ETERNITY!!!! Now I *blink* and the stores are full of winter coats and christmas stuff again already. (Yes, I said Christmas stuff. In August. Yes.)

I'm going to be celebrating my birthday with a friend whose birthday is the day before mine, what fun! But she's much younger than me. I'm not jealous... ummm... :) LOL!!! No, I'm really not! My big problem is not that I have an issue with the age I am NOW... (I haven't even hit my sexual peak yet... and there's a scary thought for you! LOL!) but it's with that whole idea of all this fun ending at some point down the road. That just SUCKS!!!! I wanna be like Lazarus Long and live forever. Yeah really! :) (Get tired? So what. He did, and he got over it! Ok, he is fiction, but so???? A girl can dream, can't she?)

Oh anyways, this blog is supposed to be about sex, right?!?!? Well I have a few interesting links. A cop in Ocean City, MD was arrested for standing in front of his hotel window naked. I am sorry, but this makes me feel like the whole conservative christian mindset has just gone too far. I remember a day when if you happened to glimpse someone naked in their hotel room, you'd... *gasp*... turn away! You wouldn't have them ARRESTED for gosh sakes! If I were growing up today I'd be arrested every five minutes for some wierd thing that when I was a kid, people just sorta tolerated. I kind of prefer the mindset that if you don't like something, you just don't PARTAKE, or LOOK at it.

Speaking of getting older, here's an article from a porn star on the subject. But gosh, she sounds so darned bitter! The truth is this: Some guys ONLY want 18 year old tiny little hotties. Forever. No matter how old they are. Do I think they are crazy???? Sure. Beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. But do they exist? Absolutely. Of course some guys only get turned on by "mature" ladies. (OMG am I mature now?!?! I will be working on immaturity as much as possible!) Or big ladies. Or blonde ladies. Or whatever their particular turn on may happen to be. So what? To each their own!

More later... :)