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Updates...

2007-05-23T13:36:00.000-04:00

Well hey! Yeps, I am still here, and still me, although embroiled in a mess of mommyisms. Being a mama is the best thing ever. But I am still me.. C reminded me last night by fucking me silly on the bathroom sink. *sigh* Oh, yeah! Me! :)

I am going to start a new blog for discussions of me and my baby, for those of you who are interested in such... I don't think it's appropriate to talk about a baby here. So that blog will, well, probably be R-rated because like I said... I am still me... but there won't be any porn on it. URL to follow ASAP.

I'm also in the process of moving this blog. I am not loving Blogger's new idea of forcing us to use our gmail accounts to log in. :( I should've moved it a long time ago but would love it if anyone knows of a nifty way to EXPORT my 196 posts which I would like to take with me! Any thoughts, please let me know.

My baby.... :)

2007-01-20T20:19:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone! I am sorry it has been so long, but you know, I have had my hands *babyfull!* The baby was born here at home on December 30th. She weighed 9lbs and 4 oz, and needless to say... I and my cootchie are still recovering! My body is so different now I'm a bit freaked out about it, to be honest, though I suppose I should've expected it. But mostly I'm just "babymooning," nursing my baby, cuddling, all that good stuff. She is gorgeous. Amazing. Miraculous. Thanks to those of you who sent me your good wishes!!!! :)

You're "caught!"

2006-12-24T15:46:00.000-05:00

The other day while I was en route to a midwife appointment, I stopped at a gas station just by the highway... because, of course, I had to pee! :) Anyways, I like stopping occasionally at this gas station because I know they carry Taboo magazine. It's one of the few places I can get one!

So there I am, 41 weeks pregnant and with a biiiiiiiiiiiig belly, looking kind of sleepy and tired, buying some pregnancy friendly snacks and drinks, and... "Could I please have a Taboo?" Those people must think I'm either a) nutso with crazy pregnancy hormones or b) just plain nutso! :)

C and I like to look through the porn shoots and movie reviews, for us it is plain fun. I love porn in general, honestly.

So all this was running through my mind when I was reading a post on a mama type message board about a woman who "caught" her husband surfing porn online again. "Caught." She went on to say that she feels like he is cheating on her... that he is *not* looking at 39 year old fat mothers of two... and that besides all that "That is someone's daughter!"

It's really not worth my posting a reply to her. Most people's view of porn are so skewed by what society tells them to think that it's futile anyways. But this made me so mad. First of all, that she'd be treating her husband like a child.. "caught" reading porn? He is an adult, for heavens sakes. Secondly, that she doesn't even notice the biggest problem here, which is that she has already made her husband feel like he needs to *sneak* something he obviously enjoys. How can it possibly be good for a marriage to have all those secrets from each other? This is not to say that C and I don't masturbate alone. We both do. People need to, IMO! But we are honest about it with each other, we love each other enough to be honest about it, and there is absolutely no need to hide from each other.

Finally, she is pouting and stomping her foot that her husband doesn't find her... a self-described "fat, 39 year old mother of two," as attractive as whoever he is looking at online. Well, gosh honey... shouldn't you at least make an effort? I mean we cannot all look like Jenna Jameson, but it would be a pretty boring world if we did. I certainly don't expect C to run around drooling after me when I'm feeling like a pregnant beached whale and too tired to put any makeup on! (Though he always says I'm beautiful. Always. I love my baby!) But if I am feeling amorous, I will make an effort to look attractive and sexy for him, not sit around on my pregnant butt and whimper about it.

I *know* this post describes a much more "normal" relationship than my own. Which is part of what makes me so angry. Wouldn't it be a better world if, instead of "catching" your husband looking at porn, you said... "Hmmm, she is beautiful. What do you like about these photos? Can we do that together?" Wouldn't it foster more closeness in your relationship if you could share your sexual fantasies instead of beating each other up for having them?

It's sad to me, honestly, and no wonder so many relationships don't make it!

As for the whole... "That is someone's daughter" thing... oy, how silly can you get? Of course it's someone's daughter. And someone's son, with her, more than likely. And people have sex. Some people like having sex while others watch. SO WHAT? *sigh* Doesn't it get old trying to judge EVERYONE else in the universe???

(BTW... yes, I'm still pregnant. Now 41 wks and 2 days along. Send me some "come on out, baby" vibes! :)

December belly...

2006-12-13T15:52:00.000-05:00

For those of you wondering...

NO, I have not had the baby yet! LOL :) Our guess date (hypothetical "due" date) is Dec. 15. But she could come anytime. Babies do not pay any attention to our calendars!

Anyways, here are some pics of my 40wk pregnant belly, taken last night. I'll have more photos up in the members area hopefully tomorrow... my back hurts! But I know they turned out well as C was taking his clothes off while shooting. That is always a good sign :)

My little Santa outfit didn't *quite* fit, but still... fun fun :)

Hope you're having a wonderful ho ho ho holiday season!!!!!

Fully informed consent...

2006-12-03T17:59:00.000-05:00

Apparently, this is what it's coming to....

Busy, busy, baby building...

2006-12-01T14:53:00.000-05:00

Hey guys, I am sorry for so long between posts! I am fine, all is well, baby is fine in my belly still and I do really have a big belly now!!!! I will try to get C to take some updated pics tonight... :)

Between baby stuff, holiday stuff, remodel stuff, etc... I have been so busy! Not to mention just tired all the time. Given that I will probably just get more tired once this lil' one decides to arrive, I am going to officially take some time off from the website. Which doesn't mean I necessarily won't post anything, just... don't expect it!

There are a few of you who've been so patient with me the past few months, my members whom I love and adore! I would like to offer you an extra month free now and an extra month free whenever I start posting regularly again to make up for any inconvenience. Unfortunately my billing company doesn't give me an easy way to do this... (nothing is perfect, is it?) So if you are a member right now, or your membership expired in November, you can email me, let me know, and I'll take care of it for you! (email: curvygirldc(at)yahoo.com)

*smoooooooch* hopefully I'll have a few shots for you after this weekend! We did take a few of me barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen... LOL! :)

I am officially a dork...

2006-11-09T18:50:00.000-05:00

Because I started laughing out loud and clapping my hands with excitement and glee as MSNBC reported Donald Rumsfeld's resignation. Yeps. Definitely a dork. (I mean that in the nicest and most self-affectionate way possible!!!! LOL!)

I love Susie Bright's summation of election day. What a day, what a day! And yes, I was calling my friends in Virginia and telling them... "GO VOTE!" :)

BTW, I had a big Cardin sign on my front lawn right next to a smaller O'Malley sign. The O'Malley sign was stolen. TWICE. The Ben Cardin sign, either the night before the election or the morning of, someone took after with a sledgehammer or similar blunt object. Now *that* is good sportsmanship!

Fluffy bun in my oven...

2006-11-01T16:08:00.000-05:00

Well, this series of photos was taken on October 13... so that is two weeks ago and already the belly is much bigger!!! I am 34 weeks today which means I have six more to go, in theory... we'll see!

I suppose it would be logical to assume I've become so baby-obsessed that I've forgotten all about my poor lil' sex site and horny viewers. Not so!!!! Actually what is keeping me away from the keyboard is our still-in-progress remodel. Man, remodelling, I know we all have horror stories about it! (I didn't used to, but now I do! LOL) Anyways, I've had family and workers here EVERY single day. They left early today or I wouldn't be typing this now!

OK, is it just me, or are the Bushies really grasping at straws making such a big fuss over this John Kerry thing? I mean... who CARES? They are trying to distract everyone from bad economic indicators, bad news from Iraq, and Bush's general badness, IMO. I am looking forward to this election! :)

Sorry, that was random, but I have CNN on in the background and cannot believe how much time they are devoting to this stupidity!

Anyways... between remodelling and being just generally pregnant and sleepy and stuff, I am not feeling so creative. But I really *want* to take some creative, fun, pregnant pics. So I'd love to hear some ideas and I'm requesting them! So let me know what you think :)

Anti-porn again...

2006-10-19T15:30:00.000-04:00

Well, I must've done something right, as it seems I've pissed someone off. Hehe :)

When I posted my most recent anti-porn post, I also posted a comment to the blog of the woman who believes it is her life's work to save other women from... yanno, themselves. I knew she wouldn't post the comment in her blog. Heaven forbid anyone entertain the idea that it is not only possible, but obvious, that many many intelligent, empowered women are now involved in the porn industry. Like Susie Bright. Or Annie Sprinkles. Violet Blue. Me! :) Well anyways, there are more than I can even mention here, women whom I respect and am so honored to be able to include myself in one of their numbers, even if I'm just a tiny little dot in a great big pond.

So, apparently this person came and checked out my blog here; I am not sure how, I don't recall having left my URL. Perhaps she looked up my IP address and cyberstalked me? I am not sure. Then went on over to my BDSM Blog, where, as my readers know, I write about much more intense BDSM fantasy type things. So, she left me a comment there. Which I suppose she thought I wouldn't post at all... and as a comment, I won't. But I will post it here, for your reading/viewing pleasure, with my responses to her. Her letter is in italics.

Who *hasn't* fantasized about being raped, sexually molested, tortured, or having their body mutilated?

Well, lot's of people, actually.

Wow, thanks for the newsflash.

Maybe if you weren't “chubby” you'd have better self-esteem and wouldn't take pleasure in being treated like shit. Nor would you encourage violence against women.

I am not sure how my weight is even relevant to the conversation, aside from an opportunity for a petty, small person to make a petty, small comment in an effort to make me feel bad about myself. Isn't that silly? Why would I feel badly because she can't think of something more intelligent to say than a snark at my weight?

As for wanting to be treated like shit... well, in a fantasy context, sometimes... sure. It's fun to enter a different reality where I can crawl and beg and be completely exposed and open and vulnerable.

In reality I'm a happily married woman who is spoiled rotten by an adorable, sexy husband, and is 32 weeks pregnant with a beautiful little girl. Do we do BDSM fantasy play? Yes, as part of cherishing each other. Is that outside your realm of understanding? Becuase that is ok with me. I didn't ask you to understand.

BTW, where or how have I EVER condoned or encouraged violence against women? There are few people in the universe you'd find more opposed to violence against women. Consensual BDSM is not violence against women. Anyone touching a woman in any way whatsoever without her consent, is violence against women and in my eyes, illegal and should be punished.

I know what you're thinking, but I'm not anti-sex or against all porn, just the abusive, violent kind, which seems to be on it’s way to being made illegal.

Lovely... so basically you support the government becoming more, not less, involved in our sex lives. Why not just move to a communist country and be done with it? Myself, I prefer freedom to choose what I will and will not do, and I don't need the government to tell me how to have sex. The problem here is that people who practice BDSM do not want or desire your "help" in determining what forms of sex or porn are abusive or violent. They are adults and are capable of making this decision for themselves.

And actually it is not the sexual repressed people who condemn S&M, but rather it is the sexually repressed who create it. Rape fantasies are even rooted in sexual repression.

OK. So how is it beneficial to repress those fantasies further??? When there are ways to express them safely and sanely?

Do some research, such as on religion and vows of celibacy. It’s not possible to suppress the human sex drive, it’s the most powerful biological urge, and trying to do so has some hefty consequences.

I agree.

Pain replacing pleasure being one of them. There needs to be a release, and when denied, other sensations, like pain, serve as a replacement.

Hahahahahahaha... I love the implication that I turned into a submissive because I wasn't HAVING ENOUGH SEX!!! That is hilarious. :) Actually, I was getting plenty at the time. It goes so much deeper than that. I laugh at people who tell me that BDSM is not about sex; for me, it is. But sexuality runs so deeply through the core of my being that considering it superficial truly is laughable.

Experiencing them creates a high or euphoria when they normally shouldn’t, and it’s not natural. Now you see that I’m actually more pro-sex than you because I think that sexual pleasure is fine the way it is and doesn’t need to be channeled else where unnaturally. As sexually liberated as you people think you are, you’re not. You’re in modern day biblical times right up there with Catholic priests.

Ummmm... ok, that is not very logical, but whatever floats your boat. Catholic priests??? LOL! BTW endorphins are wonderful, but if it were only about endorphins, I could go for a jog and get the same experience. I'm sorry your understanding of these experiences are so shallow.

It’s not in me to talk a lot of shit anonymously. Have a good one! You're a lost cause.

Ah, the witty, parting and oh so petty shot.

Yes, this makes you seem truly intelligent and thoughtful. Going from "you're chubby" to "you're a lost cause." Wow. Thanks!!!! :)

Now see if you can understand this. If you don't like BDSM or porn, that is your right. If you want to tell people why, that is entirely your right. But if you want to control the way other people have sex, you've got issues. It's really none of your business.

Now of course in some ways I make my sex life the business of others who are welcome to comment... but control? I'm sorry, no. You also have the option to simply not read, or partake of, anything which you find offensive. There are plenty of things in the universe I find offensive or don't enjoy, and I don't look at those things. That is what freedom is all about.

I will not, however, prohibit or support any type of prohibition on any form of consensual sex. To do so takes choices away from people, implies that they need you (or the government) to guide them in their sex lives, and leads to a level of government intervention in private affairs which I find completely abhorrent and unacceptable.

As for the porn industry as a whole, I'm enjoying being part of changing it from within in whatever small way I can. I love being one of the many, many web women out there who are empowered and in control of their sexuality, and I suppose that at the very least, if we are pissing off people like this one, maybe we're somehow stretching their brains a tiny, tiny bit. We have to start somewhere!

So, Tamara....

2006-10-13T23:44:00.000-04:00

Just how pregnant are you?

31 weeks... :)

Anti-porn again...

2006-10-10T10:44:00.000-04:00

There's nothing like a little sip of anti-porn in the morning to get my day started with a bang! I just loooooooooove it when some self-described feminist believes it is her lifes mission to save me and all the other poor little female lambs of the world from the big bad wolf of porn.

Seriously, do they not GET how condescending that is?

Not to mention the very, very obvious fact that in any large group of people you are going to have some bad, some good, some average. I will be the first to admit that the porn industry, especially the very commercialized segments of it, has lots of bad in it.

Like the guy who wanted to hire me for a movie once and told me it didn't matter if I liked it or not. "We work with girls who don't like it all the time!" Yeah, LOL, that was meant to be reassuring to me when all it did was piss me off. Or like the very few men I've met in my line of work as an escort who very obviously don't care about women at all. I had one guy tell me he didn't want his wife to masturbate... EVER! Hmph. (Though I guess he is not in the porn industry, I am!) That pissed me off too. But I never saw him again. A negative person might make it through my screening once; they won't get through twice. Because, yanno, *I* am in control.

To make up for it, the majority of men I've met have been amazing. Such a huge variety of people and while most of them might not at first understand the idea of a woman choosing to explore her sexuality in such a way, they are usually open to hearing about it and learning and opening their minds to all the possibilities of the universe... which is much, much more than I can say for some anti-porn people!

But, anyways. The porn industry also has lots of good in it, especially with the advent of the Internet and all the amazing, independant, strong, intelligent web women who are running their own sites, controlling their own porn, exploring their own sexuality on their own terms. Of whom I am one, darn it! Not to mention all the new porn related companies which have started with a sex positive theme. I mean, Toys in Babeland! Good Vibrations! Susie Bright! There are *so* many amazing, strong women in this industry and it just really gets my lack of panties in a snit to see them denigrated as being "bad" for women and children.

The thing these anti-porn people fail to grasp is that taking choices away from people is never, never a way to make them more free. Taking online gambling away from Americans won't make us more free, it makes us oppressed and treated like children who cannot think for ourselves. Taking porn away from people does the same thing. And for every study out there showing how bad porn is for the world, I would be willing to bet I can find you one showing how good it is or at least, how it doesn't make a difference. There's a study or statistic out there to prove any point you want to make.

I believe that people, especially women, are empowered through making choices for themselves. If porn squicks them out and they don't want it; they don't need to see it. If they love porn and masturbate to it daily... more power to them! And all shades of grey in between.

I'm not going to link to the site that got me all huffy and puffy this morning... that chick doesn't need the extra traffic anyways. I just wanted to rant! I have a lot of rants on my mind lately, so be prepared... ;)

Questions about circumcision...

2006-10-05T11:25:00.000-04:00

Being a pregnant mama-to-be introduces you to all kinds of things you really never even thought of before... like, *should* we circumcise baby boys? Frankly I'm torn on this issue... being someone who's had lots of sex with lots of different people, I've been exposed to many different types of penises. *sigh* Fun, to think of them all, really!!!!

But in my *personal* experience, the majority of men I've been with who are uncircumcised, had a very difficult time with condom use. A few men had foreskins that were so sensitive, that to move them AT ALL caused excruciating pain... which, of course, makes putting a condom on almost impossible. Some you were able to get the condom on, but then the poor guy would lose his erection because, yanno, it hurt! Some you'd get the condom on and then it would slide around wierd and get bunched up inside of me, which is very very uncomfy for me. And a few I remember that were able to put the condom on correctly, with the foreskin pulled *back*, wound up with the condom stuck to the head of their very sensitive penis afterwards. Even with lube. And still got that crazy bunching around problem.

This is *my* personal experience.

So I have been pondering this and thinking that maybe it's just that I am not experienced enough with foreskins and I've been doing something wrong the whole darned time. Or maybe this is something many uncut men deal with? Both are definite possibilities... let's face it, condoms were made for circumcised cocks! I am also wondering if, if you buy the type of condom with tons of super extra headroom, those would be better for foreskins?

I am really just curious about all of this, and would love to hear from you... both cut and uncut... and from women who've been with either and/or both type of men! My position on this right now is that we should *not*, circumcise baby boys, as it seems many circumcisions at that age are totally botched. Plus if a man wants to, he can certainly *choose* to have it done, by a good plastic surgeon/urologist, when he is old enough to. I throw that out there for the record and so that no anti-circ activists try to slaughter me for this post. (No slaughtering, please!) The reality is that whatever you feel, an uncut cock has different needs than a cut cock, and I don't think talking about that difference and figuring out how best to address it is in any way wrong.

Doesn't matter for me right now though, I am having a girl! :)

Deny, deny, deny...

2006-10-05T11:14:00.000-04:00

So I guess the real question about the whole Mark Foley thing is not, how many "naughty" emails and/or IMs to underage kids did he send out, but how many did he actually follow up with real physical contact? Think we'll ever know?

I refuse to believe that this man has known he is gay his whole (political) life, has had a reputation for "indiscreet" behavior for so many years, and has NEVER actually followed it up. Just doesn't make sense! Regardless...

How many corrupt Republicans have to be unearthed before people recognize and realize that the party which spews hatred at homosexuals, spouts nonsense about ineffective and misleading abstinence-only education for our kids, proclaims daily about their God-fearing church-abiding-ness, rolls around on the platform of their "family values", and continues to hammer home "stay the course" in Iraq when NONE of their kids are there.... Is TOTALLY full of crap? I mean come on!

This party is full of gays hiding in the closet, sleeping around on their wives, having abortions, hiding their kids from military service, stealing money from Americans, and of course... lying, lying, lying!

I hope the Dems take the opportunity here to come out and come out HARD and with some good messages... they are usually so frickin' convoluted in their speech and slogans that no one can figure out what the heck they are talking about anyways. I would prefer that they win based on substance, vs. than by default because the Republicans have literally become SO horrible that most thinking Americans cannot possibly vote for them anymore.

Ok, ok... here's an article about Foley that sparked my tirade for your perusal! (Salon usually requires you watch a short ad to gain access to their site for the day!) I especially enjoyed Foley's quote about the Clinton scandal. And speaking of cover-ups and denial, check out Keith Olbermann's coverage of Fox trying to pass Foley off as a Democrat. Hilarious!!!! Apparently other news outlets have followed the trend! Who do they think they are kidding?!?!

YUM to Keith Olbermann. You know I'm a political geek when I lust after people like Keith Olbermann, Jon Stewart, and Stephen Colbert. Yowza!!! ;)

And now back to our regularly scheduled porn!

So horny...

2006-10-04T14:34:00.000-04:00

I wonder if this is typical 7 month phenomenon... to be so horny! Although truth be told, I've been horny pretty much throughout... and having all kinds of unusually detailed and dirty fantasies. For those of you who like your sex on the kinky side, check out my post over at my Bondage Blog... I've written down several of my own fantasies based on some hot, hot, HOT pics from Sex & Submission. And what the heck, here is one more hot pic...

I mean obviously this pic is hot, it goes without saying! But what I love about it, is how hard he is grinding that hitachi into her tiny little pussy. You can see her pussy lip sort of shmooshed, and the look on her face is perfect... perfectly lost in the valley of pleasure and pain. Yum! Anyways if you'd like to see some more, click here for my Bondage Blog!

Jackass...

2006-10-03T11:37:00.000-04:00

I can admit when I'm wrong, at least... sometimes... I have to say I was totally offended when I saw the previews for Jackass using a supersized BBW to jump onto some tiny guy. Of course you only see it for a second in the preview, but... ugh, I thought to myself... more fat jokes, how original!

Apparently there is more to it than that, anyways... check out Steve-O's kick ass tattoo! Also, the lady featured in the movie has a much more positive view of it than I did from that preview... here she is!

I guess I was wrong! I still don't think I'll see the movie, though... I didn't see the first one either... just looks so painful! Unless there are amazing recommendations by my viewers, I think I'll skip it. But, still, kewl tatt!

Fluffy, horny girl...

2006-10-03T10:30:00.000-04:00

Hooker power!

2006-10-03T10:27:00.000-04:00

I knew it all along. Forcing hookers to have sex with you just doesn't pay. Click here for the article :)

Japanese orgy...

2006-09-18T12:33:00.000-04:00

I can't help sharing this... absolutely amazing, and taking group sex to a whole new level. Check out this video of 500 Japanese people engaged in group sex, and a gold star goes to whomever can explain to me why ALL the women are on top??? Click here!

If that isn't wierd enough, watch the video directly below it, of the Japanese Penis Festival. Well, I'm assuming it's a penis festival based on the giant penis statues around the stage. On the stage a bunch of women lie on their backs in a circle. Suddenly men jog out onto the stage wearing loincloths and masks, and then the fucking commences.

Then there is this gallery of shots from a variety of different fetish clubs in Japan...

Japan is serious about getting their kink on! I wanna go :)

Shaving...

2006-09-16T00:00:00.000-04:00

I'm usually pretty fastidious about shaving. I love to be totally bare, legs, underarms, pussy. I most especially love the way a freshly shaven pussy feels to the touch... lips like velvet, I run my fingers across them and marvel at how sometimes my pussy lips are closed up tight and secretive, and other times they are so open and inviting and come-fuck-me-now!

But, well, I'm pregnant! My belly is getting bigger. You know, no one actually tells you things about being pregnant ahead of time, like how all of a sudden you bend over at the waist to pick something up off the ground and you get shooting pains all through your groin muscles because there is suddenly all this weird tension there and you have to be much more careful about the way you move and bend. It took me doing that several times before I realized that bending over in that particular way is over for me for a while. Then comes the realization while lying back in the bathtub, that reaching your pussy has gotten much, much more difficult. Your belly is not only getting bigger, but... unlike before, when you've always had a soft, fluffy belly... now it doesn't MOVE outta the way when you shmoosh at it. Nope. Belly is going nowhere.

*sigh* I am a persistent slut however, and kept trying, right up until I cut myself. I mean, I cut myself. My poor pretty pussy! You know the really weird thing about it is that I didn't even notice I did it at the time. Several hours later, I'm sitting with C in a restaurant and all of a sudden I have this horrid burning sensation start in my pussy. We head home, where I have him look and hand me a mirror to see, and there it is. Spreading my cunt wide, I see a cut in my pretty pink flesh. Not a deep cut, but a cut. Somehow or another it just didn't start hurting right away, but lemme tell you... once it did, HOLY SHIT!

(Safety note: Try not to have sex with strangers right after shaving. You will often have microscopic cuts or abrasions in your skin which can be a portal for disease, even if you cannot see them. If you feel even a little irritated... be careful! And try that new Shick Silk Effects razor with the wires over the blades so you don't get cut up next time.)

Anyways, I have begged C to start shaving for me and he is willing, but... well, we're busy! For our last photoshoot, he was going to shave my pussy for the camera with my tied up. Very sexy, I thought. I had images in my head of shaving cream trickling down my thighs and labia. As it wound up, he got a little bit carried away and headed straight into the pounding the back of my throat with his cock and filling me up with cum... so in the pics, my pussy is kinda hairy! So embarrassing! Hopefully you guys can forgive me. I am working on this!

I just realized that now, even shaving my legs is becoming impossible. C has his work cut out for him! I guess I will have to think of a good way to repay him.... :)

I also want to say about shaving, that for me it is not at all about trying to adhere to some weird porn standard. It's not about trying to look younger. It's not about any of that crazy crap. I just like how it feels. When I was younger I had a huuuuuge, thick, wiry bush. (I know, some guys love that! I didn't!) My first Master was the first person I really shaved for, and honestly I've just never gone back. I'm so much more sensitive this way, and I just love touching myself and the silky feel of myself when I'm shaven. So it's really all about me! Selfish slut, aren't I? :)

Model distractions...

2006-09-11T12:49:00.000-04:00

Hey guys! I am sorry I haven't posted in a while. Between baby and kitchen building, I have been busy busy busy... and distracted. I am here to tell you that plaster dust is *not* conducive to sexiness. You'd think it might be, really, but nope. Makes me sneeze toooooooo much to be sexy!!!!! The good news is, my kitchen is *almost* done, so I'm *almost* to the point of being able to kiss that silly plaster dust goodbye and have a new kitchen and more time on my hands.

Anyways in the meanwhile, one more pic taken at the Wynn in Vegas... fantasyland to me now! :)

Sometimes...

2006-08-31T14:09:00.000-04:00

A piece of a picture or a whole picture catches my eye, and I get bit by the artsy bug... Doesn't this look yummy???? Makes me wanna grab C and head straight back to the bedroom! Yum!

Fun for fucking...

2006-08-22T15:30:00.000-04:00

I am not usually tempted by new sex toys, but she makes this one sound like soooooo much fun... I wish there were a Babeland nearby! Yum!

Twin Tamaras?

2006-08-22T14:39:00.000-04:00

Degradation....

2006-08-19T09:19:00.000-04:00

So ok you guys, I have been addicted to baby-oriented mommy type message boards lately. Of course, how could I help it really? Anyways, I was just reading a topic where they were talking about a recent poll showing that many Christians are addicted to pornography... which of course initiated a discussion wherein many people professed disbelief that ANY women would watch porn much less be addicted to it as porn is soooo degrading to women.

Aside: Some porn IS degrading to women. Unfortunately the porn INDUSTRY is not very woman-friendly in my mind. But the industry is expanding, changing, growing... obviously I do not consider my site to be degrading to women, more like a sex-positive celebration!

In a separate post on the same site, someone posted a question to "submissive wives." Well, given my history I had to check it out... and much to my dismay found myself embroiled in a discussion of how a good Christian woman must submit to her husband, how he must lead the family to God, how he must lead the family in general, etc. Funny how no one sees THAT as degrading to women, when to me it is much, much more degrading!

Seriously, at least the porn industry gives women independence and choice, even if it is flawed in many ways. Even the bad parts of the porn industry give a woman financial freedom which enables her to make choices for herself. To say to me that a woman must be lead by a man to spiritual fulfillment seems much, much more degrading. And I am a submissive!!!! I just think there is a huge, huge difference between choosing to submit to someone because it fulfills your sexuality, and feeling like you *must* submit to someone because otherwise you will BURN IN HELL!

What do you guys think?

I love Vegas...

2006-08-14T21:24:00.000-04:00